How should I start? Yeah… firstly, I am just homed with Cyril after watching “X-Men” movie at the Star Cineplex… nothing much to say… The movie is truly awesome!!! Don’t believe me? You should…. Even how the movie really took my heart away during the show moments, but I still found myself lost to surrounding…
I know, my birthday is coming so soon, and I shall not feel this… I feel so much down in me, I feel a tonnes of regrets, I feel everything and all related to negatives thought… All I know, I am regretted of my past… How I wish I could turn back time, where I could change what I’ve done wrong before… Yeah, that must be silly… It’s really affecting my future… And that makes me want to change the past so my future won’t be affected…
I feel that I should just die instead of facing the tough world ahead… I feel that I should just get rid of anyone right now… I feel that I should just keep quiet and avoid anything related to my surrounding… I feel that I should just angry with God over what He done to me… But I too, feel I should not do that… I even need my friends and Dear one to be with me now… hugging me and give me loads of spirit not to give up in life…
I’ve done lots of things in life… and I know, it means nothing when I failed this time…. I’ve make all the people surrounding me frust over what had happened… I’ve broke their heart over what they wished me to be… I’ve make them sad over the things I didn’t realized before….
I’ve failed… I was hoping very high on it… but it ends up failing me all over… and making my life tougher… and even breaking people surrounding’s hearts…. I feel very much a failure when I broke people’s heart… I feel useless… And I feel very sad about this…
Yeah, now I very much realize what “hurts” really mean… It a bit happened to me, but very much hurt to others… and I now, it’s because of me…. I am regretting all this… I even realized how hurt you will be when you have a very high hope to get something,but ended up having nothing… I’ve been relaxed too much… and now I realized I should stop doing it, and work something out… but what? I’ve abandoned one of the chances, and only now I realized how stupid am I by doing that… By the only chance left, I’ve abandoned it, leaving me behind without any chances…. Stupid right??? *sad*
Even my birthday is coming up soon, whatever in my wish list won’t get my mood back… It means nothing now… I feel so much regretted of myself… I feel useless… I am too happy in life, and I guess, it’s time for me to learn the true life means… I am a failure… should I just end up my life to make it easier? I should… I don’t dare to live the life ahead… It’s very tough and I can’t do it… I’m just scared I’ll be leaving by people, just because of the failure I’ve done affecting my future…
I’m scared of my future… and I really wish to have my past… I really want it to change my past… it’s really affecting the life’s ahead… which I didn’t realized it’ll be like this… You might be advising me not to regret or there’s no benefits on regretting the past… but I am wishing… wish to have my past back… to change what has happened… so my life’s ahead won’t be as what i am thinking…
I love everyone around… and they are expecting me to get this and that… but I ended up hurting them… Breaking their hearts… I maybe soon lose few important things in my life because of me… I could say, i deserve it… And I just hope it won’t happen… I don’t want to lose anything… everything is so much important to me…
When I think ahead, I might lose something… Before that happened, I wish I could turn back time, and change all this so that I won’t lose it… Some of people I known are now happy with their life… achieving what they want… while me? Sitting at home doing nothing… waiting for something I’m not taken for… I’ve being so happy… and now,it’s time for me to be the saddest girl in the world… Some will might laugh at me, having such a big mouth, but wins nothing…
yeah, I wons nothing… Immediately hurts eveyrone around me… Just because of me… I am nothing…and I feel useless… Future ahead, I deserves what I lost and what will happen…. it’s complicated… *sad*
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Take it easy.. when one door closes, another will open. Look at the bright side of things, don’t see the bad side. There is always a negative side of everything… but you should make the best of what is positive.
cheer up..
Thank you… :)
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Bear in mind that God have plans for us. Whatever happened today is for a reason.
At any time you feeling down and the world is against you, just turn to God.
Try read this extremely famous poem regarding Footprints in The Sand. You’ll understand what I mean.
http://www.wowzone.com/fprints.htm
Thanks sis…I’ve read that… and i know what it means… :)
yeah,sometimes and always, He got plans for us… Just that, i feel what He plans for me is not right… it’s tough and i could not bare to face it… :(
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Hey Amiey….
Just want to say that what happen in the past is already in the past… what matters now is what are you gonna do NOW…. the present and the future lies in your hand, only you have the power, you have the will, so use that well… Yeah, it’s already too late to turn the clock back but it’s never too late to move forward and take in charge of your life…
P.s.: Banyakkan berdoa ye… God will always be there for you…
thanks sis… :)
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Patient my little sis.
Do not turn back to what had happened. All of us have regrets and bad times in the past.
thanks bro… :D
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Hey amiey,dun b dat sad…every1 had tough times in their life…cheer up…p0sitive things happens t0 p0sitive pe0ple…
Glad you’re here girl… :)
Thanks….
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I kinda understand what you are going tru’. Whatever we had done last time, will more or less affect our future.
The thing is that, we can only take whatever we have now and make it better for the future.
Sometimes thinking to the past and feeling helpless or hopeless is fine, it’s how we deal with life, it makes us grow so that we won’t repeat the mistake. Take it as a sign to do better with what you have now and the future. The past will be the guide.
Sometimes emo emo also nothing wrong one, don’t worry, it’s quite good for health also ;p make our life more balance, ups and downs, at least you express it rather than having it pent-up in you.
You are lucky to have cyril by your side compare to others with no one for support at all.
Take care.
thanks Sis…
you’re right… there are times emo is so good in life… :D
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Hey Amiey
You know what I really think? The only way to get rid of that feeling is to find what you’re really good at. Then show the world who Amiey Alen is. Later you’ll see that those who don’t like seeing you rise but rather see you stay put and probably not go anywhere are not exactly friends. Those who laugh are jealous freaks envying your happiness. Cos if they really cared they would’ve talked to you than make fun of the matter right? :)
Wa… Long time you not here… kekeke
Thanks sis for your advises… :D Agree so much with you… :)
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if im in your position right now , i will pray a little harder …:) it helps ..trust me. God will help you .You will soon realize it . :)
I’ve pray so hard… and the result? sometimes i blamed to God… I asked him for help, but ended up giving me troubles… Im not sure how lagi dah… :(
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God, whichever God it is, and the world works in a very, very strange ways. Problems are usually opportunities. Things happens for a lot of reason, sometimes the reason are even good! It might not be visible now.
No one have died from difficulties and regrets. The only people I know without problems are those in the coffins 6 ft under. No matter what our regrets and hardship is, always bear in mind that there are other people out there with a whole lot more hardship but they got through it.
Whatever happened in the past was already meant to be.
Huhu Thanks sis for your advises!!! :)
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