Relationship & The Whole World Cries

It’s raining here at my place. Not sure of other cities and states,but here, it seems like the sky understands my feeling at the moment. The skies are blue when I’m happy, the tears from sky falls out when I’m sad.

I’ve been enjoying my holiday times. And the holiday ends up soon, which is three days from tonight. I’m not sure, but its the saddest thing for me to think of. I’ll be very sensitive when it comes to the end of my holiday. A single harsh word used to me will make me cry the whole day.

Holiday is not always happy for me. They’re times where I feel very sad, and they’re times where I feel very much happy. Having fun together with the loved ones and friends is a must whenever it comes to holiday. Going for places I had never been to for few months is also a must.

All happy things vanished once the sad thing comes. That’s how I feel. Here it goes, the same feeling comes again. I hate going back to Peninsular, and I hate it so much!

Here, if I’m sad, I have lots of people who is there to be my leaning shoulders. But there, I will be alone especially when I’m sad. I just couldn’t imagine the fact that I need to experience the things I’ve experienced before.

There, one thing you must take care of, relationship with any people in Kuching even though you’re apart. That’s the important thing. And you know how hard will it be to take care of those relationship when you’re far? its very darn hard!!! Unlike when you’re close together, its easy to comfort each other whenever bad thing crops up.

I’m not talking about my relationship, but this is what I think. Everything is not easy once I’m there. I’ve applied for transfer to Kuching, but rejected. And I’m pissed off. I just can’t make it to live there for another 6 months. I’ve been like physically and mentally stressed out being in that kind of place.

Some people may thinks that it needs time to adapt, but for me, it takes years for me to adapt to that place. I never liked that place. Some even thinks that the relationship I have with my boyfriend makes it hard for me to leave this place, and for me, its untrue.

If I have a boyfriend who is Peninsularian, I will also feel the same thing I felt right now. The fact is that, I could feel the freedom here in Kuching that suits my life unlike the other place.

I honestly say here, I love my boyfriend so much, and I never want to be apart from him. The saddest moment in life is when I leave him at the airport and fly to other states of Malaysia. The happiest moment is when I think of him waiting for me at the arrival hall, and the moment it comes true. *crying*

The only man in my heart is my boyfriend. And I feel that no one could takes and replaces him in my heart. Not sure about his feeling to me, but for me, I love him so much. And I hope he loves me like I do. He has his patient while entertaining me. He never complaints about me being childish to him sometimes, and he loves guiding my to a safe life.

I am pampered by him, and he never intents to hurt me, except when I do the mistakes. He let me out with my friends even without him. He plans my future even if he is not with me in the future. *touch wood* He will try his best to fulfill whatever I want, and he will give up when he thinks he really can’t make it.

Sometimes, I do makes him feel that I’m ungrateful. I know and I realized the fact that sometimes I’m too ungrateful, and didn’t appreciate what he has done to me, or not appreciating things I had. And I know too, this makes him sad. But being me,is me. Once I want it, I really want it. *SIGH*

He has changed me from someone who loved clubbing to someone who goes to clubbing occasionally. He has changed me a lot, and he teaches me how to have a safe life, and how important is saving money. Just to let all of you know, I love him so much. I know this sad post has changed to something about my relationship. I just feel that I want to blog about him. I appreciate him so much, and I love him more than any other men that has ever came in my life.

Three days left, and I’m unsure of what will happen. I just don’t feel like to leave Kuching. I haven’t pack my things yet. For the time being, few things in mind which are the food, places and friends. I must do it before I leave.

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