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This maybe a bit personal I am writting here..but yeah… I think it’s not that personal though… So I wanted to write about it here…

I am not in the mood, am not that well enough and I even not sure what am I thinking about… My mind is messy…. All the “data” seems not in their own place… It’s anywhere in mind… Semua nya berserabut…

For the first time in my life, I felt like a shit… And for the first time in my life, I felt this… And for the first of everything, I found myself hard to decide on something…. and for the first time in mylife, I think every of the sequences on everything I will done… Usually, I will decide something without thinking the effects, but now, which makes me more harder to decide…

What the hell is happening to me? There are people chasing me out there… NON-STOP!!!! and that, I kept on running and running avoiding him… but then, nothing happened… It just not stopped at all… they keep on and still on chasing me… wanting me on this and that… even though I’ve told them I don’t want to be with them… or I don’t want to follow what they’ve said…. It annoys me so much…. When I reached home during my visits for holidays, my family will inform me, ths and that did called me…. everytime I reached home, as in no other news I should listen instead of the person….

Then, I can’t hardly out… even staying at home… Knwoing they will come looking for me at house… or knowing I might bump into them while outing… You know how it feels? Feel like a shit, when I have my own life, but I have to control my own life because of them…. It sucks when you want to go somewhere but the canceled just because of the worry-ness you will run into them… Damn!

What they actually want from me? They want me, to be with them again…. Engaging and when the time comes, getting married…. Silly right????? They’re forcing me… and putting pressure on me… It’s a big burden on me…. When I realized I’ll be alone, nothing else on mind… I will start to think how can I avoid him if so? Even though I am not living with my parents again, they still come to my house as in they still very confident I am still living with my parents… Crazy right????

I just don’t know…. Don’t know what to do…. Highlighting here….cause I know he will be reading this… I am going to Bintulu with Cyril, and I hope he will stop what ever he is doing… It’s not only troubling me, but also my family… enough is enough!!! When I said it’s over, I really meant it… we’re over and stop chasing me like I’m yours!!!! It’s been two years since the day I asked for the break up… so stop it!!!

After a long consideration, I agreed being away from home,and requested to be at Pasir Pandak beach yesterday evening… Without much questions and discussions, Cyril answered me yes…

I wanted to stay away from house, as I feel a bit uneasy with the coming of uninvited guest… I just want to avoid that orang gila yang tak tahu malu…. so,the best place will be Pasir Pandak… Besides, Cyril owes me his time… He was busy with his robotics teams for these few days back, and I felt a bit isolated by his attentions… huhuhuhuh so, it’s now time for him to pay his debts…  LOL

Journey to Pair Pandak was not that great… With heavy down pouring rain, I felt a bit give up to continue the trip… I was very sure the beach too was raining… But I was wrong… Reached there with sunny day environment showered us… With loads of people on the beach… some were swimming, and even played football beach… some just strolling down the beach…

Walking around the beach was not that easy when you’re asked to be a model… yeah, I was his model for the day… Cam-whored the whole beach… It’s just fun… I felt blessed with the situations… Leaving Kuching with heavy down poured but having green lights whenever reached traffic lights, but reached there with full of shiny sun showering the whole place… The weather was not that hot and the place was not that too crowded….  The sunset too was picturesque…

Cyril was kind of happy with himself… I enjoyed so much that time… We ran catching each other, I jumped on his back, and asked him to bring me by his back around the beach… He jumped like a superman, but I cam-whored of his instead of jumping too… it was just nice… planned nothing, but I am glad we could make ourselves happy on the beach…. We mostly ran and walked, and only sit down for a few minutes… I could say, I was still happy until now, remembering of what we did on the beach… With tonnes of problems in mind, I could just forget it while enjoying my time with him…

Next time, I would like to swim around Camp Permai… I felt a bit jealous to see people bathing in the sea… I maybe allergic to the sea, but I just love it so much being around the beach… next target will be Camp Permai… Not only walking down the beach, but bathing too… I want to do so!!! Long time I have not doing it…

I’ve just lost my RM50….yeah…losing money again… or I could even say, I misplaced the money… woke up, and went to search for it… but found nothing…so, considered lost… keep myself silent over the lost I experienced… doesn’t want to get scolded by people especially my dad… he banked in me RM500 in Cyril’s account… yeah, me and Cyril are sharing bank account… why? I have another account and feeling lazy to open another bank account… working in Hilton needs me to open HLB account but could not have time, and we both agreed to share the account… so, every of my pay will go to that account… even my dad banked in me money in that account but not my another accounts… so, I withdrew RM100 few days ago, and left at home RM50 whenever I went out… I only bring along another RM50… thought it will safe…

For few days ago, I was having trouble with HLB and even my dad… as I said, he banked me in RM500 in that HLB account… but a day after the money was in that account, someone has claimed it was banked in the wrong account… and the wrong account was Cyril’s account… Thank God I didn’t take all the money out as soon as I got the money… the banker called Cyril and told him what happened… I asked for explanations from my dad… he was very angry about this matter… he even said maybe there was people whom found the slip, and taking the slip as the proof for him to make a false statement about the wrong account… and my dad was very sure, he banked me in RM500… on that lovely evening….

Cyril even requested me to go for HLB and see all the proof… and would even likely request to see the CCTV monitor on the ATM machine monitor… but my dad refused us to step in… he said it will be settled down and asked me not to bother about it… The banker kept on calling Cyril and asked him to come over to HLB to sign few agreements in order to agree the bank taking out the money… But well, my dad didn’t allow him to do so, as my dad wanted to know who was doing it…

On Friday last week, I was informed by my dad this thing has been settled out… and I was confused over the word “settled” he meant… The banker even has not call Cyril over this thing…. I thought maybe no more RM500 in that account as my dad maybe has taken it out…I didn’t asked my dad as I was scared he might be scolding me again….  so, I was kind of frust to know, my RM500 was lost…

One night, Cyril wanted to go for CIMB to withdraw some money… so, I took the chance to check how much left the money inside… and to my surprise, I saw my money was RM500 more… and I was smiled and smiled… remembered my dad so much during that time… Never thought he could settle up this thing and I could even enjoy the money….

Reached home with smiles on face… waiting for my mother to fall asleep… why? My dad didn’t tell her about him banked me in RM500… LOL when the time came, I asked for explanation… but yeah, my dad didn’t want to explain… he only said that, he asked his friend to bank in the money for him… and the claimer might be his friend whom was having the slip… and taking the slip as the proof for him to claim the money was inserted in the wrong account… so, maybe because of the threatened he made to his friend, the claimer canceled the claims…My dad threaten the claimer to bring him to police and my dad might request to see the CCTV monitor on ATM machine to track down face of the claimer…

So, we didn’t take any action towards this people… considering he is my father’s friend… my dad said, moral of the story, do not throw away whatever slip you have whenever you withdrew or bank in money in whatever banks… If somebody found the slip, and genius enough to manipulate the banker, you will face the same problem as mine… kekekeke

But now, I lost my RM50… DAMN!!!

Updating the deleted last post on amieymisme

If you guys notice, there was one latest post I made before this, but now, no more… I have deleted it as it was too personal… I think I should just keep it by myself… but thanks to Willie and Deedee for commenting… Really appreciate what you guys said…

I have not updated this blog since the revealing post… I think I should do something… it’s hard to think the topic to be updated… Haiya…

Oh yeah, about Digi… I’ve changed to new number since I could not stand of people stalking and disturbing me… thought to have new number which will be choose by me and number related to me, but then, canceled… frust but never mind… it was just a number…

Boring post by me… to all friends and fellow bloggers whom still keep my old number in their saves, you may ask Cyril about my new number if you need to contact me…

All I could say, this time I will be picky in who can keep my number… even you’re my best friend… sometimes, best friend hardly to be trusted… I have asked Cyril to consider people whom asking about my number… surely, other bloggers and friends are allowed but certain friends should be re-consider… I am so much worry I will be disturbed again in the future… I aimed this will be the last time I changed number…

So, this is the best way… avoiding too many people to know about my new number… even my own family… well, sometimes my sister gave my number to her friends whom admiring me… that silly!! People whom are asking Cyril about my new number will be discussed by us whether we could trust the person or not… I’m still in Digi line and I no more interested in 87 at the end numbers…

To all my ex-classmates, you may ask me about my number in our class Friendster account… but too, it’s up to me whether I will give it to you or not… besides, you all maybe knew my house phone number, any thing, you may call my house phone…

Oh yeah, what do you think…? I worked in Hilton few months ago right? I quit my work over few things especially Richard sexual harassment… which was at first called the shop and even knew my name… asking for an outing and even sex with him… the next day, he went to the shop and met my friend and asked about me… so,who should I blame on? My tauke or my colleague? Who do you think will mostly give my details to this sex maniac? He knows my name on the first call he made… he even know where the shop were… so? my tauke? Or my colleague were the one whom revealed about me until I am disturbed until this much… and plus, nowadays I heard my grandma’s complaint there are my male friend always calling me using the house phone… and who knows, this sex maniac has known my house phone number… that’s why I am asking for the readers opinion… would have my tauke or my colleague are doing this? I mean, revealing about my details….

How would you feel if someone is interfering in your personal life even the person got nothing to do or related to your life? Me? I feel very damn mad…

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Yeppy!!! Got new phone from Cyril… THANKS HUN!!!

Actually, last night my Nokia 6131 fully damaged… before, it was just hard to be charged and when charged, it could not stand for few hours… or at least for five hours stand if no calls… the phone ended its life last night while messaging Cyril and discussing over few things… I changed to my grandma’s phone after its life was ended…huhuhuhu

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Arggh!!! I hate streamyx!!! Very damn slow!!! I was just trying to apply my polytechnic since the day I got my result, but until now I could not make it… why? I’m not sure too… yeah, I know… must use internet explorer but when I used it, it was very damn slow to load… why would they use that kind of slow service for better education’s life?? Damn it!!!

*relaxing*…

I’ve been disturbed by one person few days ago… well, dwelling over the past which she was not satisfied with… Bodoh la itoo orang!!! Past is past okay!!!! No matter how much you angry with it, you could not make it to change it even how much you harassed me… come on la… why is it hard for you to forget the past??? Why were you so much bothered by the past even it’s not you problem???

Okay,okay…. It’s your problem because you’re her family, but why must you interfered in my life even the one should interfere won’t do until this far?blaming me here and there, cursing me here and there… what else you want me to do?

Okay!! You’re blaming me right??? So funny!!! At this age I managed to destroy something belongs to your family member which then now belongs to me… wow!!! I’m so proud of myself!!!!! Idiot you could not accept this!!! You’re so idiot la!!! You’re cursing me right??? Well, go on with your cursed, I do not care!!!

Hei you, listen here… I am so much happy with what I have now… and if you’re jealous with this, then why don’t you try it with your own life??? So stop bothering me as I never want to bother you!!!

As what Cyril said, maybe that was why your boyfriend left you… kept on revealing the past… if I were to be the boy, I must hate you so much… by the revenge you on to people, never end revenges…. And by the problems you always caused towards other people… and by the things you have intentionally to end up other people’s relationship… I am so much agreed your boyfriend had left you… I think he could not stand to be with you… shit-attitude!!!!

After all I know all the stories, and if you still having the hopes to contact me and story it again but different versions to me… go on!!! You can just email me or contact me by phone… you’re so idiot to do that!!!! I’ve been told few stories and which I think is true and I will never have a chanced to trust your story and the other one… I was fooled and was fooled again by your stories…

So now, you better read this carefully… if you still wanted to disturb my relationship, then go on… but you should know much that God will turn your relationship as what you did to my relationship now… but I let you know here, I still with my relationship over what had happened… I am still happy… very much happy!!!

This is my post in anger… I just could not stand it people taking advantages of my blogging life to reveal the past… past is past and you have  nothing to do to change over the past… someone is very much stupid are doing all these kind of things… do she ever think by doing this, nothing could change? Damn!!!

At first I thought I would not want to post in anger… but then,streamyx getting me into this anger… why streamyx? I have tried to apply for my polytechnic since the day I got my result… but until today I can’t make it… I wonder why do they have to trouble people like us for educations??? I hate it! I know applications for poly should be done by internet explorer and yeah… I’ve used it but still could not reach to their homepage… was very damn slow!!!!! I have no patient to wait for all this… I just hope polytechnic use what KPM and KPTM is using…

Argh!!!!! I am very damn angry now!!!